Monday, June 30, 2014
Guilt and Stress
I have an overactive guilt complex. This has been my life for as long as I can remember. In general, I go about feeling like a bad person. I worry about what I have done and what people think about me. I worry about what I haven't done and what people think about me. I worry about every. dang. thing. in the world. I'm not proud of this fact or happy about it. But I try to ignore it and get on with my life. That's why I like to laugh a lot--it helps me forget that I feel bad.
Lately I've been feeling bad that I've neglected this here ol' blog. I love this blog. When I look back and read it, it makes me deliriously happy. I'm so happy that I have the memories of raising my sweet kids and decorating my little Lehi house, making friends, and throwing parties. And writing. Oh how I love writing!
But part of my guilt is that I feel too overwhelmed to start the blog up again. Its been too long. There's too much to say. And my adorable sweet Freddie isn't on this blog as much as he deserves to be. That makes me feel bad. At girls' camp last week one of the leaders asked me how I keep a record on my family and I thought about my blog and how I haven't written on it in a year and it almost made me cry.
So, to heck with the guilt. I'm going to post some things that are old--some things that I want to remember. I know its like 2 years or so overdue. Oh well. You're welcome to read. I just need to get some things posted so that my guilt can subside.
P.S. Good to see you here again.